I feel especially compelled to write this tonight.
I’m thinking of the wonderful people I have in my life and looking forward to another trip to Vancouver to see two of my closest friends. But I’m also really missing a very special woman, who is currently in Ontario being brilliant as usual. Growing up, I always had a best friend to share my daily activities with and to bask in special moments with. Now it seems like I have a handful of people that I love very much, but I don’t get to see any of them on a daily basis. Perhaps that’s just the downside of getting older and having more responsibilities and demands on my time, and on theirs. But I see people together and the vague feeling of loss hits me like a ton of bricks.
(Take into consideration that I do, however, have an incredibly amazing and extremely loving boyfriend – and for that I am grateful beyond words. But I’m speaking, in specific, of platonic friends.)
I’m talking about that person you tell every stupid detail of your day to, the one who sleeps over at your house more than their own, and who knows exactly how you’ll react to any and all possible situations. I’m talking about the girl that feels more like your sister and who you would gladly bury a body for. I have two of these people in my life and I miss them so much that sometimes it feels as though I can’t stand because a piece of me is literally missing. It is a consuming sense of loneliness; drowning in emptiness.
Then I feel ridiculous because I’m privileged enough to have the means to see them at least on occasion and to talk to them pretty much whenever schedules allow. What I’m getting at though, is that I think these relationships are very special. I believe that connection is a rare and important thing. Most of all, I just want to take a moment to tell them I love them and to remind everyone to make time for the people in your life that really matter. It’s easy being someone’s friend out of convenience or when they’re at their best. It’s remarkable to love someone wholly and unconditionally ❤